Do you ever look at your child as a baby and wonder where they will be in the next 50 years? What kind of challenges they will endure as they grow? What role they will play in the evolution of the family? Do these thoughts overwhelm you? Well, they overwhelm me. Something about watching my children relish in their blissful innocence, prompts me to start thinking about my kids’ lives in the future and how life will play out for them as they grow. I begin thinking about how the hardships of life often forces us to really grow up. I start to reminisce about how I evolved from a girl to woman, the challenges I overcame, the bullets I dodged and how grace saved me over and over again. Sadness, eagerness, and anxiety usually overwhelms me, within about 4 minutes of going down this rabbit hole. While processing my feelings, I realized the root of my anxiety was due to me coming to the realization that the outcome of my kids’ lives is completely out of my control. Once I processed this, I was overcome with peace because I realized that I don’t have to be anxious about their lives and the things that they will go through that’s beyond my control. I realized that the answer to my feelings of anxiety is found in THE ONE who knows the end from the beginning, who has plans for me and my children upon conception, THE ONE who stands outside of time, and THE ONE holds the Universe in His hand.
If I am being honest, motherhood has brought about a lot of moments where I’ve felt like the things happening are bigger than me. In times when I don’t take these thoughts captive and submit them to the word of God, I can easily become overwhelmed with anxiety. It is for this reason I believe that my faith is a pillar of motherhood. The older I’ve gotten and the more I’ve learned, I’ve realized just how little I know and how much bigger life really is. Essentially, I’ve accepted that it’s not meant for me to know everything but it is essential for me to be connected to the One who does know everything. It’s also important that I trust that He will reveal to me what I need to know in each moment. I find solace in knowing that God will give me what I need in each moment to take the next step. Whether it’s having the provision for a business idea, making a hard decision for my family, or deciding how to navigate a difficult situation, I trust that God will give me what I need in each moment. Therefore, it’s not beneficial for me to worry about what will happen in the next hour, the next day, the next year or 5 years. My goal is to be obedient in each moment and trust that the rest is being taken care of.
So if you find yourself in a space where you are feeling uncertain, anxious and overwhelmed, here are some scriptures specific to certain aspects of life for your reference:
My Thoughts:
– Isaiah 55: 8-9
– Ephesians 3:20
My Children:
– Isaiah 54:13
– Deuteronomy 30:19
My Future/Success:
– Proverbs 10:22
– Matthew 6:33-34
– Philippians 1:6
Fear
– Isiah 54:14-17
– Philippians 4:6-7
Security:
– Psalms 23:1-6
– John 10:10-11
Mommy’n
– Proverbs 14:1
I hope that you find these helpful. You got this momma, God has you! You’re graced for this!