The truth about motherhood is that it’s scary, it’s uncertain, it’s humbling, it’s rewarding, it’s overwhelming, it’s innovative, it takes courage and it’s not for the faint of heart. The truth is, you always have to be willing to re-evaluate, to listen, to pivot, to adjust, to push past the doubt, to assess your inner most thoughts, to allow your emotions to inform you but not guide you, and to let love lead you but not control your approach. Motherhood is delegate. A delegacy that some never want to touch, yet, some women dream of the kind of mother they aspire to be as soon as they understand the concept, experience the dynamic, and have an understanding of how dangerously beautiful the mother-child relationship is.
The older I’ve gotten, the more respect I have for the role that I gullibly embarked upon as a 22 year old girl still trying to figure things out for myself. I took on the responsibility without fully understanding the value and call that comes with motherhood. However, since having my daughter, so much about my approach to motherhood has changed. This has come with a decade of trial and error and life lessons that, as I write this, I am still learning and processing.
As a woman, having a girl to guide into womanhood hits a little different than when I birthed my boys. Having a girl meant that I would have someone watching my every move, digesting and informing the woman that she will become, from all things spoken and unspoken. Her mannerisms, her inner voice, her level of confidence, knowing her worth, understanding how to love, and be loved correctly, her ability to choose the right people, and walk away from the people that may not align with her lifestyle. These last 4 years I have realized just how much of a gift this is, to be able to give my daughter the best gift, besides an introduction to Jesus. To allow all of my mistakes, the hard lessons, the things I’ve had to figure out and is still figuring out; and use it all as fuel to pour into my girl in order for her to become the best version of herself. This has been one of my greatest joys!
So today, as I celebrate my daughter’s 4th birthday, I also celebrate all the women that have embraced this journey of motherhood. Lord knows this is one that take resilience, fortitude, and courage.
Happy Women’s History Month and Happy Belated Tae Day!
Until Next Time,
Cass